I'm only going to be in China for 3 months but I will be experiencing the tail end of winter, spring and the beginning of summer so I really don't know where to begin packing. Not only that but March-May is rainy season in Shanghai and I don't even have rain boots. I guess it's time to come to terms with the fact that I'm going to have to do some shopping once I get there. This is scary to me for two reasons: 1. my Chinese is mediocre at best and 2. I don't know how to barter and I never will. I may need to resort to using taobao.com for everything if I don't figure out this bartering thing soon.
So I'm leaving in 4 days and none of this feels real to me yet. Like I've said before change fucking terrifies me and I'm scared of so many things. What if my roommate hates me? What if I don't make any friends? What if I get super homesick and have a nervous breakdown? What if I hate everyone? What if I get my organs harvested? Either way there's really no turning back now so I guess I'm just going to have to make the most of it once I get there. Everyone keeps asking me "Are you excited?" and ok, what kind of bullshit question is that? I'M MOVING TO A FOREIGN COUNTRY AND I CANNOT SPEAK THE LANGUAGE. Yes, I'm excited but mostly I'm having an anxiety attack.
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